Sugar and Spice make everything nice

The one time I finally open up to my friends; it backfires in my face. I talk to 4 people about my dilemma and all of a sudden I have 20 people at a party trying to tell me their opinions on MY problem. My worst overanalyzing nightmare come true. I'm back to not trusting anyone and akward situations. Yesssss.

I turned down three perfectly nice boys in the past month and a half. Why? I'm not quite sure. Fear of change and picky-ness I think. I've decided I'm certain to end up alone due to some weird defect in my brain.

Ahaha me trying to keep an updated Lj? Good joke. We shall see how this goes!

Dilemmas, dillemas. I seem to be bombarded with them lately. Whether or not to date one of my best guy friends, what I want to do after high school,if I want to travel or not... Realistically, I (think) I know what the answers are to all of the above, yet I keep flip flopping. (Speaking of which, anyone know a good way to let a guy friend know you're not into him without ruining the friendship?) Apparently I'm a typical Libra; Queen of indecisiveness. So true, that is me to a 't' unfortuanately. I end up planning for things far ahead of time but I procrastinate and muddle things until there's no sane way to decide beside flipping a coin. Lately I've been good at taking fun minor short term risks, but I'm still horrible at taking risks that might affect the long term status quo. Guess it's for a good reason though; I'm actually really happy with life right now. I'm afraid one day it's all gonna drop out from under me with one stupid decision. Definately gotta get over that fear. As a wise person once said "Shit Happens".

Second time is the charm right? Must be. That's what I'm hoping with my second LJ attempt. So here goes guys, wish me luck!